What’s Happenin’

Written a week ago. Things have subtly shifted since.
1. For almost 3 weeks my ribs were so painful that sometimes I couldn’t breathe. I woke up abruptly so many times in the night because I’d breathed in too hard- so then I was tired, so I would yawn which hurt my ribs, stretching them a little more each time. Catch 22. A pulled muscle I guess.
2. I’ve been getting rid of so many clothes lately, so many things. I listed over 30 items online. I can’t believe I had so many things hanging around that I was happy to sell. They’re selling slowly though.
3. And buying new things: a hob kettle, white jeans, spotty blouse, pale pink chiffon skirt, black sundress, white linen shirt.
4. My thoughts are turning towards my birthday this December.
5. I only realised recently that I’m actually a autumn baby, not a winter baby like I’d always believed. The whole run up to Christmas actually takes place during autumn, isn’t that crazy?
6. I don’t listen to the news lately. That’s where I’m at right now, with that.
7. The Lena Dunham Youtube series. Just watch.
8. Shine theory. Push yourself to befriend that girl who makes you jealous because she has it all, and is so great. Flora I’m looking at you.
9. Just to explain- we’re (still) waiting for which airfield we’re going to be moving near, for Boyfriend’s work. He needs a hangar, to re-spray and valet planes in. It’s been tough. If I’d known it would take this long, I wouldn’t have waited to immerse myself into things.
9. Being a homelover. I’d love a little more to do but I do really appreciate having a home like this. You learn something from every situation you’re in.
10. Got an appointment with a female hair specialist consultant in London in a fortnight. It’s been a long road. Thought it was the anaemia I was diagnosed with back in January, but no luck. The problem with what I’ve got is that my hair always looks like it’s getting better- it’s constantly in the re-growth baby hairs stage. I’m hoping for a concrete solution. I’m hoping this isn’t a continuation of a long search for answers, going increasingly into the unknown. It could be so much worse. Someone told me of a girl who kept having severe facial allergic reactions, was told by specialist that her face would just start to droop and she’d need plastic surgery but it turned out she was just allergic to tomatoes and potatoes.
11. Feeling the growth. The introspection of the nothingness.
12. I want to join a dance class. Perhaps ballet?
13. You just wait. I’m not lazy. Once we have somewhere concrete to live, I’m going to leap into action like a… gazelle.
So that shift. 
a. I’ve set up a Facebook group online for people interested in doing the first stage of RIE training, a two week intensive Foundation course. Lots of people are interested, and oddly congratulating me?, and it feels so great.
b. I’m also working next week, with my old nannying family, so that’ll be lovely. If a little nerve wracking, as the holidays are a tricky time- they’re big into TV and I like the outdoors. (But can easily get sucked into the TV trap).
c. I’m focusing on pushing my social life; organising a lunch with some scattered nursing degree friends (only 2/5 are still on the same path as this time last year!), organising a dinner with old school friends, I saw my middle sister in Spain last weekend, spoke to my oldest sister on Monday. Emailing various people, and generally seizing those opportunities.
d. I got an interview for the level 3 children’s counselling course- a little nervous since I’m only halfway through the adult level 2 right now but.. it’ll be OK. More than OK!
e. We’re now a long way down the path to a concrete agreement with an airfield. Strangely enough, it’s the original airfield from 3 ‘for sure’ airfields ago, when negotiations fell apart due to an unpleasant selfish man who is no longer there.
f. we’re good. things are good. we’re lucky.

Show and Tell

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The kids love when I do something unexpected. And yes, I’m aware they should be eating vegetables but I don’t decide the menu.

This was an interesting thought. I mean, it’s unlikely they’ll get into power, and even more unlikely they’d be able to implement it but imagine the outcry! I think it’s one of those ideas that sounds fairly reasonable in principle- the long term unemployed should spend their money on food and saving up, not on things that will make them sick.. But you can’t tell people what to spend their money on! They’d just work out a way to swap the cards for real money, and it’d create a strange black market. I don’t know how to fix the problem.

hah! ouch. 7cm long! That’s as long as my index finger!

  • The Baby Bomb, the first episode of a documentary about young new parents.

It made me realise that, just like every other mental health condition, post-natal depression has a lot of stigma attached to it still. It also made me think; I can do it better than that! :) But we’ll keep on waiting- and it’s easy to judge when you’re not doing it yourself!

Fell in love with the stories on this blog, about connecting with your child, and helping them to release pent up emotions and feelings through listening, staying, playing, and limit setting. Love this approach.

  • England has a new emergency number for medical issues; 111. For when it’s less urgent than 999! 
  • It snowed a lot (by English standards). WHEN WILL IT END? I think it’s the lack of sun I mind more than the snow. Relentlessly grey, every day.
  • Last Sunday in London I beat everybody in my family at bowling , by a lot. Who knew I was so awesome! (Me)
  • Boyfriend’s had a really tough week at work so send vibes of support, and I’m about to start full days over the Easter holidays- eek!
  • I blogged about Waiting for the Future and Women

Just made this banana loaf cake;

banana bread


Anyone else want to show and tell about their week?